Golden field to water: Dream of peace and spiritual Awakening

"hard to even describe where I was, some kind of field maybe, or the idea of a field, grass that felt more like a suggestion of grass than actual grass. no real reason I was there, just was, the way you just are places in dreams without arriving. and the light was doing something soft, not sunset not sunrise, just this constant gold sitting on everything. didn't talk to anyone the whole dream I don't think, or if I did it's gone now. mostly I just remember sitting down at some point without deciding to, like my body chose it before I did, and everything that's usually loud in my head just wasn't there. no lists, no worries about stuff I gotta do, none of that noise. just quiet, but a full quiet, not an empty one, if that makes sense. there was a moment, hard to place when exactly, where I felt like I understood something huge, some big obvious thing, the kind of thing that feels like it should change your whole life. couldn't tell you what it was now, it's already gone, slipped out the second I started waking up, but I remember the feeling of it landing, this warm settling in my chest like a held breath finally let out. at some point the field turned into water, or I was in water, didn't feel like a change really, just continued on. floating I think, not swimming, no effort to it. sky above was doing that same gold thing. I remember thinking I could stay there, not forever exactly, just for as long as it lasted, and being okay with however long that was. woke up slow, not jolted like usual, just sort of surfaced, and for a few seconds after opening my eyes I still had it, that calm, before the day came rushing back in."